For whatever reason today, when I turned on my iTunes and went to the Party Shuffle playlist so iTunes would make me a playlist while I did some blog homework, it picked a song I hadn't really listened to the words of in a long time. Barenaked Ladies's "Break Your Heart," but more specifically the version from "Rock Spectacle," the live CD they released many, many moons ago. This clip is pretty darn close to the perfection that is the version on "Rock Spectacle."
What an interesting song, isn't it? It takes me back to the other serious relationship I've had in my life, with the ex before I met Husband, a weird and twisted relationship that makes very little sense, looking back on it. He was nine years older than me at a time in my life when nine years was truly a big deal, but I think it was just my attempt to prove to everyone that I was a grown-up. What a stupid way to try to prove it, because we were at totally different points in our lives, and eventually it started to feel like we just grew apart, but I stayed in the relationship because I wasn't really sure how to leave it. For whatever reason, after I broke up with the guy, I felt really kind of awful about it. I felt like maybe I led him on, and that was why I broke his heart. Even though it was totally the right thing to do, I totally didn't mean to break his heart. That's not a nice thing to have on one's conscience. But, eventually, I'm sure he moved on and his life is much better without me, just like mine is much better without him. Or at least that's what I told myself when I had moments of guilt. Nowadays, nearly seven years later, I don't think of him often, but this song sure made me think of him.
BTW, did you know that the guy who sings this got kicked out of the band recently? Sure did, he got arrested for drug possession and the group I guess was sick of dealing with the drug issue. Too bad, he's an awesome singer. I hope he gets his act together.
So, have you ever broken a heart? Tell me about it...